Green things

In an attempt to force myself to return to school this fall, I did something possibly bad. I bribed myself. With cool things. Green things. Things that I've grown to love.

The first of these is a new pair of glasses. Literally, I'm in love with them. They were only $19.95, frames and lenses included, and they're wonderful. Beautiful, wonderful, delightful, and green. Well, the outside of them is black, but the inside is green. And when I'm walking around outside in the sun, and sometimes even inside out of the sun, the green inside of my spectacular glasses casts a green glow upon my face, and it looks super swell.

The second bribe (but actually, it was first, but it asked me to write about it second) is a new backpack. It's a great backpack. It has lots of pockets. The perfect amount of pockets, even. There's one for my school books and notebooks and things. One for whatever book I'm reading, my glasses (green!), and my wallet. One for my water color set and planner. One for my pens. One for my highlighters. One for my hand sanitizer and "VALIDATED" stamp that I got for my birthday from my friend Emily Bell (I'll talk about this stamp in a later post, because the truth is, I got the best things ever for my birthday this year, and they want to be talked about later in their own special "birthday loot" post), and one for my portugués flashcards. It's gray and green and yellow, and the straps are different colors, which normally would bug an OCD person like me, but actually makes me happy in this backpack.

And do you know what? I maybe bribed myself. I maybe had to (and still have to) take my backpack everywhere I go so that when I think that I don't want to go to school and want to drop out, I look over and see my backpack and remember that I bought it just for school, and then I feel fine about going to school again. And maybe I shouldn't have bought those things, and shouldn't have bribed myself, tricked myself, forced myself to go back to school, but it worked. I'm in classes. I'm even doing the most best job of keeping up on the readings and going to classes. Sure, it's only been a week. But I deserve to feel good about going and doing well for one week, because if it hadn't been for Green Glasses and Green Backpack, I wouldn't be in school, and I wouldn't be doing it well. So I say, bribe yourself if you want.